It Couldn't Be Any Better...

To think...
To think that my life was only meant to hold pain...
What a stupid thought...

I was alone...
In a dark world...
No light, No Sun, No warmth...

You had been what I wanted for months...
You floated in and out of my dreams like a ghost...
Just out of my reach...

When we met face to face again its true I was scared...
I was petrafied of what you would say...
afraid there would be more earth-shattering breaks to my heart...

But there was no breaks...
No fractures to an already broken heart...
The breaks from years of turmoil erased...

Is there some reason that your the one I love?
Is there some reason that your love has fixed me?
Is there some reason?

If anyone where to ask me...
"Can your life get any better?"
Ill just turn to you and back to him...
and say...
"No..."

Anger and the Love that comes with it...

Your in love with him, I'm in love with you
I plan on leaving... You suddenly get angry
But Through threats and pleads I decide to stay...

I don't know why I only listen to you!
You don't seem to love me as I love you!
I don't know why you care!
Must be more then friendship when you snuggle and care so much!

I hate to see you so angry
It drives me to the brink of insanity
Makes me want to hold you and never let go
But thats more than friendship and you don't want that

It dosn't make sense!
I can't get my head around it!
You say you only want to be friends!
Yet you keep laying here with me!

I finally give in...
You win...
I'm sorry...
But you can bet your money...
That I'm not gonna stop loving you...

I shouldn't keep this up any longer!
I'm risking so much!
I could envoke your anger!
I could hurt you!
I'm sorry but I can't stop loving you!

It wasn't suppsosed to happen...

These Feelings, These Dreams

I Didn't Want Them!

I Tried To Push Them Away!

I Locked Up My Heart And Threw Away The Key!

I Tried To Lock You Out!

Tried To Control Them!

Tried To Ignore Them!

Tried To Stop The Blood From This Wound!

I Can't Control Myself Around You!

Can't Keep Them Locked Up!

Can't Keep Fighting Them!

My Heart And Soul Are In Pain And Glee!

Whenever I Hear You My Heart Beats Faster!

Beats Hard Enough To Break These Ribs Of Mine!

Whenever You Look At Me My Face Becomes Hot!

Hot Enough To Burn The Sun From The Sky!

Whenever You Touch My Skin My Spine Tingles And My Legs Turn To Rubber Beneath Me!

I Know I Shouldn't Be Hopeful...

I Know I Can't Be More...

I Know It's A Hopeless Fight...

I Know Im Nothing Compared To Him...

But You've Changed Me!

You've Left A Mark On My Life I Won't Soon Forget...

For Better Im Sure...

Im Still So Hopeful...

And That Itself...

Will Be The Death Of Me...

And were back!

Im sorry ive been gone... fried my computer. stupid machines...
buut im back now and this will be updated weekly!